September 14, 2011 by terri

Do you know there are more photographers per capita in West Michigan than anywhere else in the states? Here’s the real deal. After my fateful trip to Haiti ~before during, and after the quake~ I came home and largely put my camera down. I held my kids, went back to church, then went back to school, and finally reignited my love of dance. I always loved taking photos, but the competition, pricing, ever increasing time urgency, fashion questions- all of it was lost on me. It has to be said the business end was never my strong suit, but now I didn’t get it at all. You don’t go through something like that and not come out changed. I experienced the same feelings of doubt and questioning at home- why remodel anything? Isn’t everything already way nicer than we need? (I always loved remodeling before) I found myself to be emotional, foggy, frequently disconnected, and prone to anger, which was new. And yeah, I can say it now, depressed. Classic PTS that came at a time when my own stay-at-home Mom role was changing. In short, everything changed. I had more pressing issues now. One of them being trying to figure out what to have for lunch. This is no joke- after 22 years of lunch at home with kids I was suddenly free to eat what I wanted- and I HAD NO IDEA WHAT THAT MIGHT BE. So I ate everything I could think of for my lunches and stared at my camera which was staring back at me, daring me to love it again. I was scared. I felt like people were looking at me waiting to see what I was going to do, and I was increasingly immobilized. And then I slept. I don’t know how else to explain it. I shared my thoughts with precious few people, refused to participate, drank more (delicious) beer than I needed, made my way though the days, and finally woke up. To an alarm going off. They were growing up and I- I was missing it.

This year, in an effort to regain myself, I have photographed only what I wanted to, I took the year off from Festival and Art Prize and publishing and blogging. I did that because I am slowly falling back in love, and this time- it is with the future. The future of our planet, of our children, of our souls, of everything. Somewhere along the way I went from seeing my photography as trying to capture a moment and hold onto the past, which I have always wanted to do- into a way to show the potential of the future. It may not sound like much to you, but to me it is everything. A fundamental shift in my world. It is how I got my groove back.  I am trying harder to be fully present and I will admit I struggle at times with my in-depth understanding of how quickly you can lose someone, and lose them forever. I am trying to come from a place of love though, in all my relationships and in all my work, and let that be my guide. It has brought me back to why I loved photographing children, families, graduates, true love. I love the experience, the people, the beauty captured. It is why I am finally making plans for my next trip abroad (!!!) and why I can be seen with my camera back in tow. I believe our children are the future. AND the future looks bright for them!

grace

kate

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Senior Pictures 101
February 9, 2011 by terri

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baby girl is a senior!  love, love, love her. She’s amazing.

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That’s my favorite sassy face!

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That’s the real smile. You should hear her wonderful (loud!) laugh that goes with it!

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Daddy wants me to lock that one away…but Chloe and I like it!

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They grow up  f-a-s-t  friends. Try to believe me!

I cannot promise you I will be a better blogger, can’t do that to myself right now with so much going on,

but I can tell you that is my intent. Cheers!

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I’m back!
January 30, 2011 by terri

Lord, where do I start? February is always a hard month for me. I think it’s because I reside in Michigan. It’s cold here. Ironic that I was born in February don’t you think? If I had had some say in the matter I would have chosen to be born in a different month. Say August. Nobody asked me.

Ask any of my friends and they will say this past year has been especially interesting for me, and at times, trying. Ask those closest to me, and they will say this past year I have been especially interesting, and at times, trying. It is true. The experience of being in Haiti during the earthquake did a number on me. Made me scared, fragile, vulnerable, insecure, guilt ridden (for surviving-yet again) and yet I became more independent, strong, resourceful, and centered. And surprisingly, angry. I have always operated from a place of happiness, so I was taken aback when this year I lost my patience over and over and over again. When I finally ‘checked back in’ this week, if you will, I saw the downward spiral that is looking backward with regret, holding onto my frustrations, beating myself up for not doing more, and then I picked myself up and turned myself around. Well, ok, I am doing the work of it, but I’m doing it with help from my crew. It is not an easy thing to do, to look forward, to remain positive. I will get it wrong a lot. It makes me think of how our oldest son, Mikhail, used to put himself in time-out. He knew what he was doing, and he knew he would get in trouble, but he did it anyway, and took the consequences. That is what happens when you are self aware. I feel like I have been sitting in a time-out chair. I’m ready for you all to forgive me. But mostly I am ready to forgive myself. I can get out of the chair now. I am doing what I can. I am making a difference. I am loving those around me to the best of my ability. It is enough. If I can say one thing to help you, I would say be kinder to yourself.

Amazing things have happened this year as well. First and foremost, Mikhail got MARRIED!!! I am a Mother-in-law! I still can’t believe it some days. I don’t feel old enough to be a Mother-in-law. (Indeed, I’m not really old enough ;-) Mik & Sarah got married in November when he was home on leave. It was a small, private ceremony with only immediate family in attendance, and it was absolutely beautiful. One of the most lovely days of my life! We are so proud of him, and Sarah has been a wonderful addition to our family. It was a tough call for me but in the end I decided to leave my camera home during the ceremony and just be present with my family. It was worth it. Mik & Sarah are hoping to have a reception next summer. Which brings me to mention, Mik is on his first deployment with the NAVY, on the USS Bunker Hill, at last report, near Malaysia. What an interesting experience to be a NAVY Mom as well. Prior to this I knew almost no one in the service. it is fascinating, and I am embracing it, even though it requires learning a whole new language. You’ll have to forgive me if I slip into speaking in acronyms. The NAVY is very fond of them for some inexplicable reason.

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My pride and joy. All 4 of them. And they’re all growing up and I know everyone told me but I really didn’t believe that would happen!

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baby Caroline
February 24, 2010 by terri

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I have had the hardest time getting back into the swing of things since I was in Haiti. I have been doing things like getting in the shower with my socks still on. It was good for me to finish up this session though, reminds me of all that is right in the world. I have to say, this little Caroline is absolutely lovely and has a beautiful personality to boot. Her parents are a joy as well, and nothing if not patient with me. Thanks guys, it was a pleasure working with you, all of you.

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PechaKucha for Haiti
February 6, 2010 by terri

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I am taking advantage of an opportunity to help raise funds for Haiti. There is an amazing group of people running PechaKucha (click link) and I have agreed to be a presenter in Detroit this Saturday!!! I am excited but also at a complete loss. Please understand- I have never been a public speaker, I hardly know what to say. The thing is, in this I am speaking for the people who do not have the voice to speak for themselves right now, and this is my calling. Of that I am sure. It was no mistake that I was there when the Earthquake happened, I have never doubted the trip- not even when we wondered if we would make it home.  Haiti is on my mind daily and it is up to me to help spread the word of how to help. It is also up to you. My dear friend Theo said this to me when I returned from Africa, and was voicing my frustration with not being able to help enough.  “Terri- Africa is a crisis, and you do what you would do in any crisis~ you do what you can“  My friends, Haiti is a crisis.side effect viagra side effect of viagra natural viagra alternative to viagra alternatives to viagra natural alternatives to viagra natural alternative to viagra herbal viagra erectile function Do what you can.

My Haiti photo gallery link  HERE

“there but for the grace of God, go absolutely ANY of us Terri”~ A gentleman I sat next to on the plane back to the states…

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HAITI
January 19, 2010 by terri
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So you will not believe where I’ve been. I got on board with a team from Mission Possible, out of Findley Ohio, to document their work near Sainte Marc, Haiti. View more of my photos HERE. I had already accomplished 3 days of photographing their schools and church and I was alone in the girls dorm room sitting on my bed editing photos on my laptop when the Earthquake struck. It was perfectly quiet outside and all of the sudden it sounded like a train was coming through. The whole building started shaking quite violently and at first I could not make sense of what was happening. I jumped up to leave the second story room but the quake threw me back on the bed.  I tried again and made it downstairs and outside where half of the team on the compound had gathered in the shagoon. All around us in the neighborhood people were just screaming. We were able to get online with the satellite internet and soon after realized the quake was severe. We were around 40 miles North of the epicenter. That night we unloaded the Mission’s medical storage room for drop off at the hospital north of us in Sainte Marc. The hospital was very grateful for the supplies and the head Dr. was purported to have only accepted the job a week prior! We experienced aftershocks for the next 24 hours, one of which I felt in the night and was quite strong. I didn’t sleep much.  Wednesday morning we headed south to one of the Mission’s schools to check on their condition and I photographed several children and families as well as crumbled buildings along National Highway One, which leads from Port Au Prince through Sainte Marc. By Thursday the Mission had determined they needed to evacuate us. That was a tough call all the way around and we were sad to leave but did not have the proper training, supplies, or back-up to be of help after that and we did not wish to become liabilities for the rescue efforts. We drove West of Port Au Prince, about 4 miles from the capital, and were greeted with people walking with their belongings as well as truckloads of others, all fleeing the city. There were some gruesome sights along the way, only some of which I could bring myself to document. It took us most of the day to get to the Dominican Republic and we found a hotel in Barahona. We spent Friday morning at another school run by the mission and then went to the hospital where many Earthquake victims were arriving. The hospital system there is different and if you want supplies such as and IV or sheets, you have to supply that yourself. As many of the victims were alone or without cash for supplies we sent a team to purchase what supplies were currently needed. I documented that hospital as well.  Friday afternoon a wonderful lunch was prepared for us by our Dominican hosts and afterward I burst into tears, I was so overwhelmed by the fact that I was getting to eat. Our flights were secured out of Santo Domingo on Saturday morning but it was not without great guilt that I left. I do have to say this- the people of Haiti were already the neediest people I have seen prior to the Earthquake. Now, they are desperate. Please do what you can and keep Haiti in your thoughts and prayers. They are good people, and people matter. 
(There was some news coverage as well, here are a few of the links: USA TodayDetroit News, Detroit News and the  Grand Rapids Press)
 
 
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Out of the Office
January 4, 2010 by terri

I am excited to be able to say I am out of the country on a photography assignment until late January! I have been looking forward to the trip and the work and am praying for a smooth time of it.  Happy New Year to all of you, and hold your family and friends close, as people ARE what matters. Enjoy the photos of my toothless 6 year old, they pretty much sum us all up.cialis :-)

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the cosmopolitan crew
December 22, 2009 by terri

It has been a couple years since I photographed these guys and if anything- they have grown closer in their relationships. You can just see the love can’t you. I always have a wonderful time with them and I feel blessed that they call me back to document their growth. I am SO glad we squeezed this session in before the weather turned to Michigan winter- I love the fall colors in these shots. If you have a little one interested in dance you should definitely give Maddie, Ellie, and Drew’s Mom a call at Hearts In Step. They have a wonderful thing going on over there. 

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You can see the rest of the photos HERE!

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aren’t they gorgeous?
December 3, 2009 by terri

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i almost missed this!
December 1, 2009 by terri

It’s our anniversary today and Todd must have made a little adjustment to the label on my coffee, which was waiting for me when I woke up. It was a very nice way to start the day! (also- we highly reccommend that you not get married in December. Just sayin’)
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